Yeah...um...I've been...busy

So I know I haven't written here in ages but I had a lot going on.  School takes up a lot of my time when I'm not fighting off zombies being made by The Cunt (I refuse to use my grandmother's name anymore), trying to kill The Cunt, having an impromptu birthday party thrown by my drunk mother and aunts (I love them but seriously what is it with everyone and getting drunk?), teaching Tigre about drugs, meeting my cousin Medusa (who is now a head on a shield), settling in Harry's new lioness, fighting off ink things trying to kidnap a princess, or trying to be civil towards Meg (who has since left the island-more on that in a bit.)

In recent news Meg left.  Something about her mother.  Jack went AWOL for a bit but seems to have moved on nicely...he's got a crush on the Greek goddess of Vengeance and the Hunt.  Hope he treads lightly cause I like my cuz and don't want him dead.  We have two new members of our band, Ken and Kal.  Kal is a Deva and Ken a Kami.  Ken also happens to be married to my now best friend Neala.  Neala is another daughter of Manannan and a lot like me.  She great to hang out with...and we're both pregnant.  Bast removed my ward against it and I am now pregnant with a little girl we are calling Eveylin Nicole.  I was shocked and scared at first...Harry was too...but now I'm just happy.  She will grow up with so many people loving her it blows my mind, and Harry will be a wonderful father.

We're demigods now...which meant new toys.  Da and Ma upgraded my weapons and gave me a set of hot armor as well as wings that got for my birthday.  Also they released Orpheus and instead tied Hector to my weapons...I apparently look just like his dead wife which is awkward and he kinda stares when not in my weapons...hope Harry's not the jealous type.

Oh and the Norse pantheon and their Scions have all died thanks to some titan's bitch of a granddaughter...but Neala and her cousins are dealing with that cause we are in Mexico dealing with titanspawn of some sort AND Tigre meeting his brother, Cortez.  Who as it turns out is kinda not entirely responsible for all the things he did...and Tig is having a rough time with that.

And that's where we are now...in Mexico trying to sort some mess out between two tribes.  One bloodthirsty the other calmed down and peaceful...should be interesting, life always is for us.

February is more calm but more important.

Oh the calm is wonderful!  Since cutting out the drama my grades have gone back to A's and if I keep up the work I should end the year with honors.  I'm still debating entering a diving competition.  Jack and Harry think I should and I value their opinion over anyone else's so we'll see.

Middle of the month I found Tigre and we had another talk.  He had been reading up on the other pantheon's beliefs and stories as well as his new girlfriend, Hawt, teaching him about the Egyptians.  The conversation moved onto Cortez and him finding out that a man he had hated for so long ended up being his brother.  Cortex had been corrupted by the titan Aten and the musket Tigre now had used to be his.  I encouraged him to ask his Da about Cortez and he said his Da would likely send him to hunt the information rather than just tell him.  I replied I would help him if I could when the time came.  Tigre is turning out to be one of my best friends, and I told him about what it was like growing up.  I told him dealing with people is only a recently learned skill and what I don't know I fake.  I am trying to take the attitude of without how I grew up I would not be me, but told him I would kill my grandmother if I ever got the chance and he said he would be there to help.  We talked about Chi and her unfiltered opinions before Hawt texted him and he left.

Harry had the hot tub put in for Valentine's Day and we had a lot of fun breaking it in that night.  Then the 23rd rolled around.  Why do I remember the exact date you ask?  Well I'll tell you why.  I had made my third full dinner ever thanks to Zee's lessons and Harry really liked it.  When we finished I told him about the first time he walked into the classroom.  I felt my heart skip a beat and when he called on me I was so damn nervous I had butterflies doing loop-the-loops in my stomach.  But I thrive under pressure and did my best to hide it.  It wasn't what he asked of me it was THAT he asked me.  I felt drawn to him from day one and was worried he would see it and think I was one of those creepy, clingy, stalker girls.  He told me he was a little worried I may have a stalker streak and that's part of why he invited me on the investigation he was working on.  Somehow he managed to get me sidetracked from where I was going with that to talking about his 'roommate' but I brought us back to it and just said it.  I told him I loved him.  I've felt it since the night I found him nearly dead and he said "I thought there was something unhidden in your eyes when I woke. The sight has never left me, your beauty and love radiating from your soul. I love you too Korina." I felt my heart sing with joy at those words. I loved him and he loved me back. He looked me in the eye and gave me a soul searching look that I knew to well and I teased him for using my look to which he replied "And so the teacher becomes the pupil." and kissed me with more passion and fire than I ever felt from him. That night was amazing and it is burned into my heart and mind forever. 

Dram-uary...

SO in early January Meg held her first 'magic' class.  I went cause I said I would but really the subject matter bores me.  I mean magic is for little kids.  The next day I got a call to come over to Meg's to help cat-sit Chi cause the boys were taking Tigre out...I hope they go easy on him.  We took Chi to go get some food and met Hawt, one of Harry's sisters who turned out to be new to the island and had 3 cats of her own.  She invited herself back with us and pulled out this relic horn she 'borrowed' from her mother.  She and Meg were curious about it and even though I told them not to they fucked with it and cats exploded from it, tearing a hole in Meg's roof.  The guys showed up and I introduced Harry and Tig to his sister.  They sorted out the cat mess and I took my drunk boyfriend home.  They boys got thrown out but wouldn't say more than that about what happened.

About a week later Jack finally told Meg about his age thing and she flipped the fuck out.  Jack fled and I calmed Meg down and we went searching for him.  I tracked him to the water and told Meg to wait while I went to talk to him.  I found him in a cave under the water where he was running tests on the drugs we had been finding.  He and I argued and I pushed his buttons like he pushed mine until he tried to swim out.  I asked the water to push him back and it did.  We argued some more about how he is NOT his father but then I saw his face pale and looked to see Meg in the water...WHY THE FUCK CAN'T SHE EVER DO AS TOLD!?  He pulled her out and she slapped him for lieing then kissed him, trying to get him to see that she still loved him.  I quietly stiffened the water again as they started to work this out.  He revealed he slept with guys too and I was impressed with how Meg ignored it and kept him on task and pressing him to answer her if he loved her.  He tried to lie to her and say he didn't and when she pressed again he broke down crying.  I left after an hour when I was sure Jack was done fighting her.  I hated watching Jack like that.  He's my cuz, and I love him.  Having to say the things I did...

Another week passed and Jack called to meet for coffee.  We went to the place on the pier and walked to the end to talk.  He wanted me to ignore a lie he would tell and wanted Meg to hate him.  He didn't want to talk up here so we went to his cave to talk about it.  He was hoping to 'betray' us and get in with this mysterious drug scion and needed Meg to hate him for real so it would be easier on her.  I was really concerned for his safety so I sat down by the water's edge and tried to get a vision to come to me.  I saw death and got to ask questions to clarify.  It told me he could not succeed as things stood and there was nothing we could do to make it work.

After all that I suggested we go diving to have fun since he cooped himself in that cave all week.  We stripped down and did some dives before floating and talked about me possibly competing in NY in a few months.  I've been toying with the idea but we'll see...and that's where the day went south.  Meg showed up on the beach and saw our clothes and assumed we were fucking each other.  She tried to storm off, Jack chased her, and the fought for a second before splitting off.  I almost went after her but you know what?  I had had enough.  I was so gods damned sick of picking up her pieces and fixing her.  Fuck this I am EIGHTEEN YEARS OLD!  I should not be stuck coddling some SEVENTEEN year old who FLIPS out at EVERYTHING.  I grabbed my stuff, showered and grabbed Uncle D's wine before going to the park and draining half the bottle before Meg showed up.  She started yelling about how I was a horrible person for screwing her boyfriend, and I got her to shut up by yelling back at her about how stupid, immature, insecure and jealous she was.  She left and I think I finished the bottle before passing out.  When I came to I was in Jack's arms and puked on him before seeing Zee and Meg there.  I had finally had enough and got out of his arms and turned to them both and told them I could no longer take it.  Jack was my cuz and so long as it was not Meg related I would be here for whatever he needed.  To Meg I told her I was done.  I was cutting her out of my life cause it was s tress I just could not handle anymore.  I don't think she thought I was serious either.  Zee knocked us out again and I snuck out the window of the room she put me in when I awoke and went home...funny I already was all moved in with him now and it was more of a home than I had ever had.  I got home and told him what happened and what I planned to do about it and we snuggled on the couch to watch Scrubs.

SO needless to say January was filled with drama...hopefully I managed to cut some of it out.

The last weeks of the year.

When we returned I came to Harry's and found him laying out in the garden.  He looked troubled so I sat down and asked what was bothering him.  He told me he was worried that we had not been using protection and I froze.  I hadn't even thought about it.  I was just to into enjoying my time with him it never crossed my mind that I was not on anything and we didn't use a condom.  He told me not to worry but of course I'm a woman...I worry.  So to changed the subject to my plans for tattoos/piercings.  He said so long as I didn't turn into Meg or a cat he was fine, and we spent the night watching the stars until I fell asleep in his arms.

The next day Meg wanted to go shopping which was fine since I needed to go see Rhine anyway.  She want to get so lingerie and I managed to shop with her without laugh at her.  That girl is so naive.  But I found some stuff for me too and it was nice to be buying something to surprise Harry with.  After we paid we went to Rhine's shop and I got 4 studs in my eyebrow, a belly button ring, my nipples done, and angel wings tattoo'd on my back.  Meg freaked a little at the nipple piercing and didn't get it but Jack showed up and they went off together...which was fine with me as I seem to be getting a shorter and shorter temper with her.

When I went to Harry's that night I have to say...we skipped dinner and went right to dessert.  He loved the new lingerie and those nipple piercings...oh I am SOOOO glad I got those.  Best night ever (well up to this point.)  We didn't even sleep just kept going till almost lunch time the next day.

The following day I went to the range to practice some more and found Jack there.  He was doing target work so I stepped in and taught him about breathing control and patience.  He got a bit better and I was glad to help my cuz.  We quickly switched to melee training and both of us were off.  So I asked what was bothering him and he suggested we go for coffee and talk.  He told me he was actually 28, that when Apollo came to him he had stopped aging and I told him my fears of being pregnant.  HE informed me I wasn't and made it so I could not get pregnant.  I told him since he and Meg had slept together (she told me earlier in the day) he really needed to tell her and that I would be there if he wanted me to.  We talked a little about her distaste for fighting and how he worries about that since it seems to be such a big part of him.  I pointed out that we were Scions and even with the war long gone we are Fated to fight...it's what we do.  And Meg would have to get over that and accept it.  I told him I could never see him loosing control so much he would harm her and frankly I was more worried we would get in a tight spot, Meg would flip out and he would stop fighting to comfort her leaving us to deal with something we could not handle.

The caffeine was kicking in so we went diving and Jack, of course, bested me in that.  I think his Greek skills tend toward athletic pursuits instead of reading people like mine seem to.  After some showing off on his part I remarked how had things been different he and I could have ended up together.  But between Demeter's curse and my own loneliness he had backed off and decided against it.  He asked how we were related and I told him our family tree was so damn twisted I gave up long ago trying to sort it out.

When I left I texted Harry asking if he wanted me to grab dinner while I was out and got our Chinese and headed to his place.  He was in the garden again and I told him about Meg and Jack hooking up as well as the fact that (praise the gods) I was not pregnant and on divine BC.  We ate and talked about how we had both changed since the start of the term, then I asked if he minded if I kept some thing here to make it easier when classes started back.  He said he could clear a drawer for me and I felt my butterflies flip flop in my stomach.  We went in and he turned on old Scrubs reruns while I quickly did dishes before joining him on the couch and fell asleep in his arms.

The rest of the break was quiet.  I spent a lot of time with Harry and started to pester Zee about teaching me to cook before classes started back.

An abrupt end to the trip.

So we decided today was the day we needed to find the lizardmen and end this.  Harry and I got on Arion and took sky patrol while Tigre, Dom, and Tabitha took to the ground.  Meg, of course, decided to stay at camp and wait on Jack.  We got to the first camp which appeared to be picked clean and headed west.  I saw a large camp about a mile ahead so I landed Arion and told them what I saw.

That's when we started having issues.  Dom had a ridiculous idea of me scouting on Arion...hello..I'd be spotted since you can't hide anywhere in the sky.  Then came the argument of how to handle the camp when we reached a 30ft wide stream.  Tigre wanted to go off by himself and make a distraction so the rest of us could sneak in.  I worried what would happen if he bit off more than he could handle with no one to back him up and suggested we pick off the guards along the perimeter as a group...running in like a rampaging bull would do no good.  Suddenly we heard a patrol coming so I lept across the river...the others just sloshed through it so I quickly reached down and told the water to be still.

Tigre caught a scent and rushed forward in time for a lizard man to dive into a tree and come up at the top.  Chi lept up after it and while Tigre came back to use.  He wanted to try his original plan modified with someone going with him and this time I agreed.  But it seems we took to long because we were surrounded by lizardmen.  Harry and I took aim and then Dom did one of the stupidest things I've seen...he tried to chop a tree the lizardman was in down!  HELLO ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL THE REST OF THE CAMP WHERE WE ARE!?  If that tree had fallen it would have given us away for SURE!  But thank the gods it didn't and an arrow flew at him.

We decided on retreat with Tigre and I covering the group as Arion would fly him and I out if need be.  As the group retreated I summoned Arion and pulled Tigre up with me and took to the sky to continue covering the group.  For some reason as we neared camp Dom stopped and felt the need to try to ambush them....when up from the ground a lizard man came and bit into his crotch!  I called Jack immediately and Tigre lept off Arion to grab Dom.  I told him we we're coming in hot and to be ready.  When we got there he and Meg were with a mushroom woman and when the lizards arrived they stopped and did not enter our camp.

Suddenly there was a loud clap and spores rained down from no where covering the lizardmen and turning them to piles of ooze.  She told us she had killed everything in the area and suggested we leave before Gaea showed up as she would be angry so we gathered our things after Jack stitched up Dom and went home.

...high ho the dairy-o a hunting we will go.

So we had a week of nothing but hunting while we mulled over the drug issue and at some point while I was out alone, Tigre came to talk to me.  He wanted to know what girls find attractive about boys...but he put in in terms like animals.  I chuckled inside cause it makes sense in his mind for things to work like that...humans aren't that far removed from animals after all.  I told him each girl was different and it was more than one thing.  For instance I like intelligence, wisdom, and levelheadedness while Meg seems to like em silly, athletic, and cute.  Apparently though he had thought of asking Meg out but decided against it, especially when she and Jack seemed to be getting close...and he knew Harry and I were together.  I couldn't even lie to him about because he could smell our scents on each other.

The conversation turned to pantheon views and he told me about why his does sacrifices.  He stated it like fact and insisted it was not belief based just how things were.  I told him I tended to view things as all the pantheons are right.  What each does to keep the world going IS needed, but it was up to us Scions to do what is needed not the mortals at large.  It is his duty to perform sacrifices but that does not make it mine to do so for I am Greek.  He told me of a vision his father showed him of how his civilization rose without human blood but at that same time the rest of ours fell.  So they went back to using humans again.  I told him that I felt all of our civilizations fell because Fate felt we got too arrogant and needed to be brought to our knees and humbled, because all of them fell to Christianity or Islam, including the Aztecs.

A day after that Harry and I spent some time alone at the hot spring...it was nice and relaxing, and it was nice to be able to focus on making him happy.  We both agreed a hot tub is a must for back home...but I was just enjoying the time with him....

...sorry drifted off into dreamland again.  Anyway a few days later I was diving off Arion with Harry watching when Meg woke up screaming.  Turns out Jack and Andy were missing.  She rang his phone and I got it out of his tent to find Athena calling him too.  I hung up Meg's call and answered my aunt.  Athena had training to start with Jack.  Of course when Meg heard Athena's name she got all jealous and such...I really need to talk to her about that before she drives Jack off.

We followed a trail of black ooze to a camp where we saw some giants and men milling about and a mass grave of corpses.  Meg freaked out and I quickly took her from the situation.  We had surprise on our side and I refused to let her ruin it!  Once she was calm I set up with Tig and Harry and we fired in harmony at one of the giants.  We finished off one, and lept onto Arion sweeping a group of thralls before they finished off the last giant.  Suddenly from the pile of bodies someone lept out covered in shit, gore, and blood screaming  "REVENGE OF THE GOLGATHAN!!!" ...yeah that had to be Jack. The lizard man dove into the earth fleeing so I circled looking for signs of him and when he popped out I went after him and took him out. I brought his corpse back for Tigre. I told Jack when he was clean to come find me and that Athena had called him.


When we got back to camp I couldn't sit still and paced on the beach before an urge hit me. I walked out into the ocean and stretched my hand out and a volleyball sized ball of water floated up to my hand. Wow is all I can say!

A hunting we will go, a hunting we will go...

So we have this hunting trip on New Terra.  Turns out there is something killing off the predators and the it is throwing off the ecosystem.  So we are to thin the herds and find out what is killing them.  Meg of course was not happy with the prospect of killing off the cute ones, and Tigre and Chi were glad to get back to some normalcy (for them.)

We stepped through a portal and were there.  We stowed our stuff and the Major said we'd start scouting.  Tigre took off to find the cats and talk with them, so Harry and I went another way so we did not disturb them.

It was a nice walk for a bit.  I took his hand and we found a tree that could give us a good view of the area.  I'm glad we can walk n silence without it feeling awkward.  I don't understand some people's need to constantly chat...why can't you just enjoy someone's presence.  I lept up and grabbed a branch and swung myself up.  Harry climbed after me, and got a nice view of my ass.  After some playful teasing we spotted a waterfall and some wild pigs coming our way.  We took out three as they ran by and climbed down when they cleared the area.  Some Kobalds showed up to take the pigs we killed and seemed to indicate there was trouble back at camp and we headed back.

We got to camp and Winter told us something was wrong with Tigre so we headed the way he did.  When we got to him there was a dead jaguar.  She had been with cubs and a Raksasha had killed her.  He wanted to make them pay and after staring at the corpse I couldn't help but agree.  This was wrong.  Someone had killed her and ripped the young from her belly...it was horrible.

Meg used her Magic and Tigre his scent to track them to a crossing point.  Tigre asked Harry and I to go with him and the group split again.  It led us to a waterfall that flowed up instead of down.  We lept in and saw wolves fighting a lizard man.  We took out the lizard man together and it's body disappeared leaving behind a vile of liquid.  It was getting dark so I led them back to camp.

That night Meg was bothered by a dream from her dad.  He wants her to cement relations with Jack it seems.  She was scared (duh!) so I told her what my first time was like and re-assured her that no it doesn't make her a slut.

The next day the Major took the boys hunting and would not let me go with them...I was LIVID.  But Winter found a hot spring so swimming there helped me ease my anger.  Eventually I met Winter's 'inner self' and she asked me to keep Meg from telling Winter about her.  I pulled Meg aside and relayed the message to which she freaked out and shouted about 'why does no one trust me?' and got out of the water.  I followed her and shouted it wasn't about her, that not everything is about her...she can be such a selfish child sometimes...and she tried to slap me before gathering her clothes and walking further into the woods.  Suddenly she screamed for help and I found a huge deer about to gore her.  I shot it between the eyes and Winter made an ice spike impale it.

When we reached camp I called Harry because the deer had a yellow drug in darts in it's back.  Harry came back and Jack finally woke up and came out of the boys tent in time to discuss the new drug.  harry asked to see where it happened so we took them to the spring.  As Harry looked over the site Meg and Jack started flirting and went to the spring...I think they forgot how close it was cause we heard everything they did (or didn't do *snicker*)  We followed the train a bit that led west before returning to camp again.

My date(s) with Harry

So I'm gonna back track a bit now that I have decided to write about my date.  The night before I taught Meg to swim Harry and I had an actual date night.  We walked to a Chinese place and got take out and went back to his house.  He set out the food while I set up my laptop with our movie for the evening, Identity.  We talked for a bit and he held my hand as we walked to his place.

We relaxed on the couch eating and watching the movie though honestly I paid only minimal attention to it.  I was just enjoying cuddling with Harry and feeling....calm and happy for once.  And then I drifted off.  I woke up at 4am with a blanket over me and no sign of Harry.  I nearly freaked till I remembered where I was.  I turned my laptop back to a phone and crept upstairs to check on Harry.  He was fast asleep and I couldn't help bu watch him for a bit before heading back downstairs and writing him a note.  I wanted to go check the surf before Meg's lesson, so I let him know where I was and that I enjoyed last night.

The beach was great, the surf warm and not too strong so I stripped down and took some dives off Arion.  After my third dive I realized someone was watching me on the cliff and as I got closer I saw it was Harry.  At first I was embarrassed but then a though crept into my head...why should I be.  I care for him a lot and I know if he asked I would gladly go to him in his bed.  Eagerly even.  So I yanked on my pants and bra and flew up to him.

I asked him how the view was and he said he enjoyed the rounded hills, to which I could only laugh and kiss him for.  And wow what a kiss.  We'd kissed plenty of times over the last couple of days but I just felt a push from my heart to make this more.  I nibbled on his tongue and lips lightly and matched his passion with mine eventually straddling him.  I wanted to be as close to him as possible and it was some heavy making out to be sure.  Sooner than I wanted he laid back on the grass as I sat on him looking down at him.  He remarked on how I looked with the sun coming up behind me, and I just let it out how much I wanted him, to be with him.  I was scared for a second that he would say no, especially when he brought up I had a lesson with Meg this morning, but he followed that up with an invitation to come by this evening and fall asleep there.  I felt my heart leap for joy at the prospect and we said our goodbyes as I went to go get ready for Meg.

That evening I came by to find he was cooking dinner, and it was one of my favorite things...burgers and fries.  I love greasy, fatty foods best.  They taste good and I work out enough that I don't have deny myself the good stuff.  So I told him about my day as we ate.  About Megs lesson and going by Rhine's shop.  Her sister made my gun no longer need ammo.

I asked about his plans for the evening and he said he hadn't planned much beyond food and spending the evening with a beautiful woman to which I could not resist asking playfully when she was coming.  He said she was about to leave after a gourmet meal and pulled me back onto his lap and kissed me deeply.  He is such a good kisser by the way...I feel like I just melt in his arms when he holds me and kisses me like that.

After a few moments he asked if I'd like to see a painting upstairs and my heart did another leap.  I wanted nothing more right then to be with him.  He took my by the hand upstairs and stood me in front of his mirror and said "See is it not a beautiful sight?" and kissed on my neck sending an electric like shock through my body and causing me to moan softly "That's one."  He asked one what and kissed my neck again and I turned to face him and told him it was one of my five spots and I invited him to find the others.  He found my ears easily enough and helped me strip off my clothes.  My nipples are likely my most sensitive spot and he spent many moments teasing them before finding my last two and pulling me on top of him on his bed.  I braced myself on his chest searching his eyes for a last reassuring feeling and found it easily.  I kissed him deeply, hungrily and rocked my hips against him before asking him to make love to me...and he did.

I spent the next four nights at his place (easy since Meg was pissing me off), just loving his company and his body and him.  I feel so open and free with him.  Yes I think I love him but I refuse to say it first.  I will not be one of those needy clingy types and I am perfectly fine with where we are now.  The only downer is keeping it hidden since we don't know the rules with him being my teacher.  Gods I hope it is ok cause if not I will drop out if it means I can still be with him.

Swimming Lessons

So I met Meg at the mall and after sorting out that no I wasn't going to hit her, and no I wasn't mad at her or Jack she bought me a bathing suit and I promised to teach her to swim...or at least to not fear the water.

Jack showed up and I pulled him aside to apologize.  I also told him how things went with Harry and he promised to tell anyone.  I asked what was bothering him cause I knew it went deeper than being worried about me.  Turns out his parents were too busy to be parents.  They saw him as an inconvience.  Apollo never came to see him after his visitation and so he got his hopes up only to have them break...but that has a lot to do with Zee, Lizzy, and I being here.  He said sometimes he thinks I had it easier dreaming my parents cared so I told him my past.  How I was abandoned and have known since I was little I was unwanted and unloved.  He and I aren't so different, although I can see my parents now and Apollo can not see him as long as my sisters and I are here.  I need to talk to Da about that.  There has to be a way for Apollo to come see Jack with us still being here...

I told him nothing else he can count me as family and we'd fill in each other's holes.  Hey gave me a hug and Meg came out.  I think she thought something was going on...oi this will be a long talk I am sure.

The next day I took Meg to the beach I hung out at and got her used to the water.  It took an hour but I got her comfortable enough to play in the surf so that was good.  She got me talking about Zack...and I told her how I had learned to live with it.  She's one of those 'happily ever after' girls...and I don't buy into that.  I really care for Harry but I don't think will be kind enough to let me be happy with him, we'll see.  I calmed Meg's fears about her tattoo and took her home.  Got myself showered and went to the range....I'd be lying if I said it was just to practice fighting...

I get the second biggest scare of my life.

So I spent the next few days by myself.  I still couldn't face Harry, and Jack's words cut deep.  I was acting like a little kid, and I was scared.  But not knowing for certain was hurting more than knowing so I finally went looking for Harry.


He still wasn't at the range and I could feel myself panicking so I walked around downtown hoping Fate would take me to him.  Eventually I found a house with his name on it and knocked on the door.  No answer.  So I knocked harder and called his name and the door swung open a little and still had no answer.  I looked in and called him again but all I could see was a colossal mess.  There was a broken mirror, empty bottles everywhere and cigarette buts and trash, but no sign of Harry.  I could see the dining room table had a dinner for two laid out and I felt my heart sink.  We had not discussed a date for the dinner because we were too busy avoiding each other.


I went upstairs and it was more of what I found downstairs.  The rear window had been put out and the desk and wardrobes contents were all over the room with Harry's magnum police badge and wallet are scattered across the room. The hipflask was the only thing standing still on the window ledge. Looking out of the window I saw Harry unconcious in the rear of his small garden. 

I felt myself panicking even more. Oh gods not again. I can't go through this again, I can't! I couldn't get him to wake up and his breathing was not normal so I called Zee. She came through the shadows and was able to clear the alcohol from his system (really handy trick I must say.) She helped me get him to his bed and left. I sat there next to him and fought back tears. It was all my fault. If I hadn't been such a damn idiot this wouldn't have happened. I felt myself drifting in and out of sleep and awoke when he finally stirred and made some crack about the underworld. I have never been so relieved in all my life.

I asked him why, and he said he was mad at himself, and when he gets like that he gets destructive. I went and got him some water and sat down next to him again. I told him it was my fault and he said it wasn't, I told him then I was the catalyst because I can't be clear with my thoughts, let alone my emotions. He told me he thought he'd lost me. He was angry for thinking someone as "good looking and interesting" as me could ever be interested in someone past his prime, beaten up, and old like him. I don't see him like that though. He is kind, and attentive and handsome and smart...

Anyway I told him I would have gone to Anubis and demanded his soul back if he had died. I want to know him and....be with him. Though I don't think he caught that.

So while he showered and cleaned himself up I cleaned up as best I could. I put some coffee on and by the time he came down it was ready and I was nearly done. He suggested food to help with his hangover and I walked over and kissed him. I had to before I lost my nerve. It took him a little to figure out what was happening...hangover and all that but he kissed me back. I apparently blushed when we pulled apart cause he said I'm cute when I blush.

I think I may have a best friend...shame we spent the time together yelling...

So after my fantastic fuck up I decided to go into hiding.  I needed time alone to sort out my shit.  I mean what was I thinking?  Harry is old enough to be my father...he is smart, and skilled, and experienced...what would he ever see in me?  I'm just a kid in his eyes.


So I spent a few days at the stables with the exotic horses there...and spent a lot of time flying on Arion.  Up in the air I feel free from everything going on down there.  It helps me forget even if it's only for a little while.  I also found myself at the beach below the cliff...I refuse to acknowledge it has anything to do with Harry though.


Well a few days into my self imposed exile when Jack and Meg found me (I should have known Meg would come looking for me.)  After some poking on Jack's part and a lot of prodding on Meg's, I told them sort of what happened.  I didn't name names because only Jack knew my feelings for Harry and I really didn't want to look like the fool I felt like.  Eventually Meg told me the Death card came up and she apparently thought I would kill myself...please I didn't try it or even think it when Zack died making a fool of myself in front of Harry wasn't gonna change that.  Besides I now know what happens to those that do that...Tartarus is not a fun place and even with Hades and Persephone for parents I would go there.  My father loves me but rules are rules and he won't break them for even me, of that I am sure.


Then a funny thing happened.  Meg told me I should enjoy being a kid while I can and I yelled at her.  Then Jack started yelling at me shouting, "YES, KORINA, YOU ARE A KID. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A KID. A SCARED LITTLE CHILD, HIDING FROM WHAT LIFE THROWS AT YOU. THAT'S THE PATH YOU'RE TAKING, DON'T YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND THIS? YOU SEEM TO GET THE REST OF US SO DAMN WELL, BUT LOOK AT YOURSELF! GODS!! IF WE COULD ALL JUST RUN AND HIDE LIKE KIDDY KORINA..."  I felt this urge to hit him but I fought against it and yelled back, "FUCK YOU JACK! HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME OR WHAT I GREW UP IN? I HAVE LIVED AND BREATHED SORROW FROM DAY ONE."  But he wouldn't drop it he kept pushing, "OH, PLEASE!! AT LEAST YOU COULD IMAGINE THAT YOUR PARENTS LOVED YOU AND HAD DIED, LEAVING YOU AN ORPHAN... I HAD TO GROW UP KNOWING THAT MY FOLKS WANTED NOTHING TO DO WITH ME! YOU JUST WANT TO BE THE SAD LITTLE BABY AND HAVE EVERYONE LOOK AFTER YOU, DON'T YOU. THAT'S WHY HARRY SEES YOU AS A KID, NOT BECAUSE OF YOUR AGE"  Finally I lost it and hit him.

He asked if I felt better. I said no. He said hit me again. I told him it wouldn't help. He said he was sorry and I told him I would show up when I felt ready. He hugged me and kissed my forehead and apologized again before letting me leave.

When I get over myself I will need to thank him...and ask what is bothering HIM.

Icarus has nothing on me...

So I did some more practicing at the range and it seem's I have got the double shot down...but only if I aim.  Without aiming it is all pure luck.


I was at the range at 3am hoping for some quiet after the huge paintball fight we had earlier (lots of fun and I won thanks to Arion.)  When I left Harry motioned for me to follow him so I did.  He took me to this secluded cliff overlooking the ocean and put a rucksack down on the ground.  He sighs and I notice the bushes moving, before telling me "This is the biggest step I've taken in a while. I promised my adopted mom something on her death bed. She loved me like no other, Bastet wasn't part of my life until much after mom so they seemed like two separate times. I promised that I'd never let her leave until I found someone who loved me as much as her. I feel that that time is now Kory" 


I stood there in shock and asked him if he loved me...and he replies "I'm not entirely sure what I feel at the moment. But this is the one thing that feels right in all the madness and mundaeity on the island. I just know I want you here while I do this." 


I felt my heart leap for joy...someone finally had the capacity to really care for me again. Out of the bag he pulled out an urn and I saw a human woman's ghost float near. I asked what she looked like and he described the ghost I saw and told me she loved the sea. I told him she still does and as he spilled the ashes into the sea she faded away. He picked me up and put me on his shoulders and that's when it hit me like a sick kick to my gut...he sees me as a kid, a daughter.


I didn't know what to do all I knew if I refused to cry in front him. I lept off his shoulders and landed a few feet away and just kept muttering "Oh no...no..I..." I could feel the tears welling in my eyes and I felt like the biggest fool in the world...more of a fool than Icarus ever was.


He grabbed my arm and said let's just go on with me as his student for the week and next week he'd treat me to dinner and see where we were...great a pity date, THAT'S what will make me feel better. I couldn't take any more I could feel my control slipping so I pulled free and ran. I think I need to go pull myself together...it was so much easier when I denied myself the ability to feel.

I am NOT right...

So Meg and I went to the club and as I figured she nearly freaked at the sounds coming from the dark corners.  We danced a bit then she ordered a shot of something...drank 2 of them...and proceeded to throw up.  So the night ended early and I brought her back to her rooms.


The next day I had class with The Muses.  My ridiculous brother, Orcus, showed up with his whole entourage.  Mint came over and I chatted with her a bit.  Jack came over too and picked up on my mood but class started before he could press me.  The Muses made Orcus' imps disappear and he got pissy and left taking Mint with him...poor girl.


I went to Eratos and she had me working on placing myself in others shoes and asked the Lady and The Tiger question.  Then had me say what my friends would choose.  Afterwards Jack approached me and got me talking and before I knew it I had told him everything.  We got some coffee then went to practice fighting.  While we fought a snowball came from seemingly no where and hit Jack.  He smashed a mirror and told me it had been happening a lot.  So I offered to clean it while he told Harry (cause I SO did not want to talk to him yet.)


When he came back Jack grinned and told me I should go tell him how I felt.  I felt I could trust Jack's judgement so I went to talk to Harry.  I sat down and babbled a little before finally saying that I thought I had deep feelings for him.  I sat there not looking at him till the silence got to me and I looked at him.  Then he said, "And I for you. This has only confirmed them, for you have had the confidence to face your feelings. You are one of few that have seen it fit to share their feelings with me. The only other one to do so as you was a long time ago."  He asked me to do him a favor and give Jack a wedgie and used my nickname but that was it. I left still very confused....*sigh*

I get MUCH better with my gun...and make a HUGE ass of myself

SO I spent the next few days practicing and Harry was a huge help with my aiming and whatnot.  And after days I finally got it.  I also talked more with Harry about how I grew up and why things had been so tough.  When I left he used my nickname again and I am sure I blushed like a moronic 14yr old.


I'm starting to think I like him....and he's old enough to be my father.  Somehow that doesn't change the fact that I do like him...OMG I did NOT just type that.  Oh gods why me?  Why can't I do anything like a normal person?!


I'm on my way out to Pandora with Meg (she paid to pierce my ears FINALLY!!!) and I stopped into the range to find my clip (yes I stupidly forgot it...wth is wrong with me?) and Harry was there in the shadows meditating.  He handed me my clip and asked me to show him if I learned anything and I hit 4 of 6 shots.  I told him he was a big help (he was) and he replied "Aren't I always?" (he is) and I replied "I don't know...I mean you have been so far I guess...how helpful are you at other things?"(WHAT THE FUCK GIRL!?) As I hurried out he said he'd see me later and used my nickname again...


I don't know how long it will be before I go back to the range...

Parent's Day....SHIT

So intially I was looking forward to Parent's Day.  I mean I hadn't seen Ma since visitation, and I had questions for her.

It started with Zee and I having to hide a nymph named Mint from Ma cause of some raging jealousy issues.  Dom showed up as we picked her up from Orcus (Hades son)'s rooms and offered to take her with him.  Zee and I chatted on the way back to the dorms.  We cleaned up and waited.

Ma eventually showed up and it was odd.  Hades was behind her arguing with Orcus and there was a 6yr old girl standing behind her.  Mom then drops two bombs.  First I can go retrieve Zack if I so with and  Second: the girl, Lizzy, is our sister.  I decide to get mom alone and when we got to my room I asked her about my dad.  Ma has me sit down and proceeds to tell me not only is Lizzy my sister, she's a full sister...and Hades is our father.  She started to babble out excuses but I really didn't want to hear it....I felt incredible rage at her.  I was hurt and angry and all I wanted to do was scream at her.  How could she do that to me?  She left me in an orphanage believing I was unlovable and that something was wrong with me.  Then she said something that just really got me...she thought we'd all be on happy family....I just reminded her Greeks don't have happy families and left before I did something stupid.

I took off on Arion and eventually landed to try and sort myself out.  Turns out Hades followed me, which didn't surprise me really.  He and I talked about things that had happened, how Demeter is a heinous bitch.  Turns out she cursed me so no one would love me...that bitch will pay for what she did.  Turns out he adopted Orcus and did not father him.  He's Zeus's brat.  He never wanted anyone but Ma so he adopted to appease her though she doesn't know it.  I told him I wasn't going to make a try for Zack.  I loved him, I still love him with all my heart but in my eyes the dead should stay dead.  Since Ma hadn't calmed down yet I took hades to meet my friends.

Dad and Mannanan chatted a bit..apparently Mann thinks he's funny. *shrug* I introduced my friends and am not sure if Da caught it but when Harry turned up I glowed inside...WTF is going on with me?  Eventually Ma calmed down and Hades and I went back.  I told her I hadn't forgiven her and was still angry but I would try to work out my issues.

Da gave me a jet black iPhone with a Cerberus on the back that doesn't need power, works anywhere, transforms into a laptop and can call the dead...yes even Zack.  Da has him in the Elysian Fields and says he will understand why I cannot come for him.  We'll see.  time to go practice more...I will get this damn it all.

Fighting, and practice, and failing, and emotions...FUCK

So the damn birds were back and they saw us so surprise was out the window.  The man beckoned us over and when we asked why he was doing this he spouted off how mortals misuse his fathers gifts...after some thinking we figured he was a son of Shennong.  Battle seemed unavoidable and his goons fanned out while he raised the gators...YAY! Zombie Gators. -.-

I have to say everyone is amazing in there own way.  Watching Tigre and Chi in battle is like watching a dance.  They work in perfect time with each other.  Harry's gun blows everything to little pieces and while the gore can be a bit much I can see we will never need to worry about him not contributing.  Dom's staff becomes a wicked looking axe, which is very cool...I mean I love my shifting gun.  Meg and Jack showed up just in time for Meg to get the kill...again.  The man in red exploded in red ink...

Tigre said he was a paper doll and there were more we needed to kill before we could find the actual Scion.  The last Zombie Gator is apparently my new pet since only death kids can control him.  I'm not sure what I think of him.  For not he can go live in the stables or something.

I spent the next few days studying and practicing at the shooting range.  Harry helped me learn patience and to control my breathing as I target certain parts.  I got pretty good at that and tried doing a double shot....yeah seems I have something to work on.  The next day Meg showed up...I swear that girl knows how to push my buttons.  First in Fate class thinking losing Andy was the same as a loved on dying then at the range.  She was asking about my past and as usual I couldn't keep my mouth shut.  Then I was thinking of Zack and my anger just spilled over.  I was practicing weaponry and managed to break the training dummy with the wooden scythe...fuck.  How am I gonna pay for that?  Well I scared her a bit and when I went to get the broom she came and tried to get advice about Jack.  I don't why I can't have a normal conversation with anyone but true to form I nearly bit her head off telling her I knew nothing about relationships.  WHY CAN'T I BE NORMAL!?

I went to clean up and didn't even notice Harry till I dropped the bag in the trash.  He said he'd sort out the dummy mess and brought me a coffee which is what I needed.  I finished it and turned back to the range.  If I didn't get this out now I was gonna go home and bite Zee's head of for sure.  I took aim and fired down range...after missing I finally gave in and squeezed off all the rounds at once.  Harry told me to try to control myself so I just stood there for a few moments and breathed trying to rein in my emotions before taking aim again...I aimed for the hands and both shots hit the heart.  I cursed in frustration and hurled the gun at the target but even that didn't hit.  I swear I was having my worst day since coming here.  I decided to leave before I fucked something else up too.

I came back the next day practicing shooting and throwing and failing as usual.  Will I NEVER get this right?  Suddenly from behind me four shots ring out striking both hands and eyes.  I looked and of course it was Harry.  He urged me to keep practicing which I planned on doing anyway...I mean I WILL get this damn it.  Finally on my 4th try I took out the knees.  I decided to end there cause best to end on high note was the mantra at the stables.

Harry went and got me a coffee which was nice...that stuff always calms me and makes me feel better.  He asked how my classes were going and I asked about his past work.  Eventually he told me about his visitation and asked about mine.  Even if I wasn't already prone to talking about it I would have told him.  He has this effect on me...bah I'll examine that later.

Oh and he used the short version of my name...

A troll, a duck, and more tears.

So we headed to the troll who sells meat and questioned him about poisoned meat.  We we're followed by these weird red birds and they suddenly exploded raining red ink onto us.  A man with Tigre introduced himself as Dominic and said Fate told him to help us.  I'm starting to think I should learn more about Fate...

We find Wally leading a large duck into his shop and follow him in.  Meg got touchy about the butcher shop so she decided not to join us inside...that girl had better toughen up fast.  Mr. Callahan had me take the lead, which had me nervous as hell.  I mean I don't want to fuck up in front of my teacher?  But I calmed my nerves and focused on the task at hand.  Turns out Wally was getting his human meat from a guy on the docks and it was poisoned so he threw it out.  We asked him to set up a buy so we could go on it and find this guy.

Mr. Callahan asked my to go with his group to the buy while Jack and Meg checked the clubs for drug sales...and told me to call him Harry from now on.  The oddest feeling welled up.  I was happy but confused all at once...hmmm...I'll examine them later.

We met up after getting cleaned up and waited for our target to show...again it felt good to be around my teacher...he has a calming effect on me it seems.

Drugs are bad...Mkay!

So I started my Profiling 101 class today and managed to get singled out by my teacher.  He asked what we wanted to study so I answered....big mistake.  Never volunteer info.  After I told him he asked me to study him and tell me what I thought so I did...not sure how good I did but he seemed satisfied.  He asked me to help on his own investigation so I guess it wasn't so bad...

So I met up with him and apparently a few others...the ones I had met upon arrival actually and an Aztec scion named Tigre.  Apparently there was some weird drugged out Chinese people fighting and they were trying to track the drugs origin and stop it.  Meg consulted with Fate and we got to ask Fate for clues.

As we headed to the docks 5 thugs had caught and surrounded what at first seemed like a mermaid but I recognized her as a siren.  She was young and in trouble so we jumped in to help.  We dispatched the thugs and Meg broke down crying, apparently she hasn't killed anyone before and was touchy about it.  I mean I wish I didn't have to either but these men weren't going to hold back on us...no sense holding back.

The siren needed her bell to be on land so I retrieved it and she had legs and was naked...stupid sirens.  Jack consoled her while Mr. Callahan questioned the wounded one.  Turns out the siren say them with someone dressed in red, very snake like.

Mr. Callahan and the others think it is a combination of giants blood and Chinese alchemy...and they have a giant lizard with them.  Tigre picked up a scent and Tabitha and Jack and the Siren went for a dive to follow it while Mr. Callahan, Tigre, Meg and I went to the meat shop.

I don't know where this is going but it can't be good.  For now I will keep my eyes open and learn as much as I can from Har...I mean Mr. Callahan.

Orientation

SO I get off the boat to be met by a man calling himself Arwen, yes THAT Arwen, and a minotaur.  Apparently there were three others getting off the boat with me, Jack a son of Apollo, Meg a daughter of Manannan Mac Lir, and Tabitha a daughter of Thoth.  Turns out Tabitha is a teacher here, or will be, and the other two are in high school.

Jack and Meg seemed to hit it off, chattering on about nothing, but I couldn't help but feel out of place.  Even here in the company of other Scions I felt out of sorts.  Guess I should get used to that.  Arwen told us where to go for the big 'welcome to the island' speech while the minotaur took our things to our rooms.  Turns out that was the best thing to happen all day.  The main knowledge gods from the pantheons were on stage arguing over who would talk and Athena kicked Thoth in the balls.  Best orientation EVER.

I took off on Arion to my room which is of course underground.  Doesn't seem like I have any roommates yet but Uncle Dionysus left some wine in the fridge.  After unpacking my bag I went out on Arion and explored the island.  It's small but not bad.

A boat takes me to my future.

You know I always thought that when I left state care it would be the best day of my life.  But I can't help but feel nothing but fear.  Fear of the unknown.  So as I sit on this boat headed to a floating turtle island I can't help but look back at what I have been through with much sorrow, while looking to the future and worrying if more sorrow is yet to come...

...but then could it be anything else for a daughter of Persephone?